Hip Hop Studies Conference and I'm Lost...
I'm struggling with this concept of society as a church or body of believers, strugglin wit the idea of the hip hop choir working thru this panel thing...all in all I think imma be able to beast it...
Now lets get to it...
I was working in ma yard cutting grass cuz it takes no time now considering where i came from cutting grass as a kid...(i know stay focused) n e way as i was cuttin this grass i was drawn back to a convo i had wit momz talking about responsibilities, family and obligations to friends n fam and i thought n asked my self why do i let everybody put stuff on me n i dnt even try to put anything on anybody. Imean really i said to myself i do what i do cuz i wouldn't wanna put anybody else thru what i put myself thru, i mean i empathize to the point i might go crazy, if i knw you i knw that whatever problem you're having, it's gonna eventually be my problem, not because it's my business to solve all life's problems but every time sum cumz up i say to myself what would i want somebody to do if i was in that type of situation....its soooo stressful though cuz all this burden is never released, all my life i've felt the need tbe the bridge, carry da burden, etc...n i neva found a way to release it, man dis is cazy cuz im not able to handle me own stuff and in some cases i just end up lettin everybody fall....i dont think there are any lessons to learn from me from this one other than
1. get cha self right or face a heavy life
2. you cant save everybody nor should you want to...
3.you gotta find a balance in order to truly succeed, when learning on compassion it was put best as enduring with the other or your pain afflicts me...so to a point those in close encounters with you should weigh on you but you gotta realize that some weight is your weight and some weight is theirs you cant carry everybody anytime or somebody all the time...
imma post sum real, real soon until then my Hawks need to stop playing like pigeons n get tuff...dwade is nice but his team isnt get outta the first round nice...Now You Know!
Monday, April 27, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Drake, Influence and Richard Simmons
I Dont Like Drake...yet?
I know alot a people on this dude and by everything i've heard of him i gotta admit he has talent but just with any new phenom I'm a slight skeptic. Maybe its the degrassi thing maybe it's his flow sounds ridiculously similiar to wayne or maybe cuz nobody is just not feelin him and i'm tryna be different. But on sum real I'm not on em because of what went down in a college class room when discussing afro american males who shape the image of african american males...Somebody please tell me why in a class full of grown men, some ignant thats right IGNANT clown decides to throw his name in the bunch along side a Obama and Mike Jordan and Mike Steele or anybody with a real imprint on the shape of African American manhood...let me explain my professor who stays controversial came in class and asked us to pick 5 blk men (LIVING) who are the most influential to shaping the blk male image. In my mind I'm thinking awww Morehouse here we will separate ourselves from the rest of the crop here we will show a diversity of knowledge....WHAMP WHAMP these sorry clowns had the audacity to pick the following Barack...ok a given...Jay-Z...ok i stopped wearing throwbacks....this is where it gets depressing the next 3 all entertainers Will Smith, U GOTZ 2 BE KIDDIN ME....LIL WAYNE, he def didnt influence me to do NATHAN...and DUM DUM DUM and I really mean DUMB DUMB DUMB SOULJA BOY....How ignorant is that, i had to plea with the crowd to take this Drake character off the list with strong opposition backed by "he hot right now" GOT DANG...have we fallen that far where "hot right now shapes our image, where was Mike Steele (dont agree wit em I'm just saying) where was an athlete, Not to be that guy but c'mon blk ppl we do put out sum athletes...No Jordan, Lebron, Kobe....no Public intellectuals Dyson, West etc....no politicians apart from Obama, C'MON and they where really fightin to keep Drake on this list! I give up...in a class full of freshman I realized that the future sux if im spose to be influenced by Soulja Boy Tell 'em, what da hell has he told me other than supaman a ho n Yuuuulllleeee on a ho. I'm sorry soulja boy what if i dont keep "ho's" in my company then what do I do, and when you gonna finally tell em so u can sit ya ass down....now to be fair I've Yuled, Supermaned, Cranked it and attempted to Birdwalk, but all these things in the privacy of my home or amongst tight friends, and it's not to say i dont want this brotha to be a success. I sincerely do, I want all Whack rappers to succeed, think on it would you want to see Professor Soulja Boy Tell 'em or Dr. Soulja Boy Tell 'em or have this guy doin ya taxes or hell even pumpin ya gas...no keep whack rappers in the industry cuz...where da hell else they gon go?) but back to the issue Why are our young blk men picking soulja boy as an influential person in shaping tthe image of blk men...if we read books ohhh the power...(shouts out to Dr. Fluker) we would have a diverse perspective on influential leaders, the saddest thing about this is that in all his classes this list was the SAME we talkin at least 100 blk men agreed, thats enough to make a educated guess on what the population on campus is saying..this has gotta stop, n At Morehouse 2 King n Mays is pissed right now....n Drake I might feel ya if you didnt sound southern with an Ontario drivers license.
what did we learn today chillen's
1. I dont hate Drake, just his hype
2. support whack rappers or they will teach your kids, pump your gas, do your taxes and attempt and prolly fail at being productive members of society...
3. READ A BOOK
4. I've Cranked It...and I did like it a bit
5.Soulja Boy is the Hip Hop version of Richard Simmons (The original Hip Hop as workout)
6.Will Smith...C'Mon at least Denzel can play a believable bad guy, have u even played one or not been asexualized in a movie (i'll prolly explain later)
7.We do have some athletes blk ppl lets not act as if this aint so we can jump out da gym
8. Lets Go HAWKS, yea Imma real fan
9. IGNANT = Ignorant
10. Nathan=nothing
Imma get on this more consistantly my mind is always at work...
I know alot a people on this dude and by everything i've heard of him i gotta admit he has talent but just with any new phenom I'm a slight skeptic. Maybe its the degrassi thing maybe it's his flow sounds ridiculously similiar to wayne or maybe cuz nobody is just not feelin him and i'm tryna be different. But on sum real I'm not on em because of what went down in a college class room when discussing afro american males who shape the image of african american males...Somebody please tell me why in a class full of grown men, some ignant thats right IGNANT clown decides to throw his name in the bunch along side a Obama and Mike Jordan and Mike Steele or anybody with a real imprint on the shape of African American manhood...let me explain my professor who stays controversial came in class and asked us to pick 5 blk men (LIVING) who are the most influential to shaping the blk male image. In my mind I'm thinking awww Morehouse here we will separate ourselves from the rest of the crop here we will show a diversity of knowledge....WHAMP WHAMP these sorry clowns had the audacity to pick the following Barack...ok a given...Jay-Z...ok i stopped wearing throwbacks....this is where it gets depressing the next 3 all entertainers Will Smith, U GOTZ 2 BE KIDDIN ME....LIL WAYNE, he def didnt influence me to do NATHAN...and DUM DUM DUM and I really mean DUMB DUMB DUMB SOULJA BOY....How ignorant is that, i had to plea with the crowd to take this Drake character off the list with strong opposition backed by "he hot right now" GOT DANG...have we fallen that far where "hot right now shapes our image, where was Mike Steele (dont agree wit em I'm just saying) where was an athlete, Not to be that guy but c'mon blk ppl we do put out sum athletes...No Jordan, Lebron, Kobe....no Public intellectuals Dyson, West etc....no politicians apart from Obama, C'MON and they where really fightin to keep Drake on this list! I give up...in a class full of freshman I realized that the future sux if im spose to be influenced by Soulja Boy Tell 'em, what da hell has he told me other than supaman a ho n Yuuuulllleeee on a ho. I'm sorry soulja boy what if i dont keep "ho's" in my company then what do I do, and when you gonna finally tell em so u can sit ya ass down....now to be fair I've Yuled, Supermaned, Cranked it and attempted to Birdwalk, but all these things in the privacy of my home or amongst tight friends, and it's not to say i dont want this brotha to be a success. I sincerely do, I want all Whack rappers to succeed, think on it would you want to see Professor Soulja Boy Tell 'em or Dr. Soulja Boy Tell 'em or have this guy doin ya taxes or hell even pumpin ya gas...no keep whack rappers in the industry cuz...where da hell else they gon go?) but back to the issue Why are our young blk men picking soulja boy as an influential person in shaping tthe image of blk men...if we read books ohhh the power...(shouts out to Dr. Fluker) we would have a diverse perspective on influential leaders, the saddest thing about this is that in all his classes this list was the SAME we talkin at least 100 blk men agreed, thats enough to make a educated guess on what the population on campus is saying..this has gotta stop, n At Morehouse 2 King n Mays is pissed right now....n Drake I might feel ya if you didnt sound southern with an Ontario drivers license.
what did we learn today chillen's
1. I dont hate Drake, just his hype
2. support whack rappers or they will teach your kids, pump your gas, do your taxes and attempt and prolly fail at being productive members of society...
3. READ A BOOK
4. I've Cranked It...and I did like it a bit
5.Soulja Boy is the Hip Hop version of Richard Simmons (The original Hip Hop as workout)
6.Will Smith...C'Mon at least Denzel can play a believable bad guy, have u even played one or not been asexualized in a movie (i'll prolly explain later)
7.We do have some athletes blk ppl lets not act as if this aint so we can jump out da gym
8. Lets Go HAWKS, yea Imma real fan
9. IGNANT = Ignorant
10. Nathan=nothing
Imma get on this more consistantly my mind is always at work...
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Keep a Hater/Bleeding is not necessary when surgeons are present...
maaannnn u wanna talk about an epiphany...so ya boy is sittin in my car sleepy tryna thing about this assignment for my leadership class(great class) n we are suppose to think deeply about a quote by Howard Thurman (paraphrasing) dont do what you feel the world needs but rather what makes you come alive...deep right, well me in my mind went for a trip circling this idea and i discovered a few things
1. I've yet to come alive
2. most ppl are walking dead
3. as different as i think i am, i am "most pply" in most aspects
4. i have a destructive nature
so with that these are the nuggets im passing on, maybe somebody can learn from me
do not listen to friends when making decisions they can only convince you, listen to haters/doubter because they often motivate you to do great things, appreciate ya friends help and their listening to you but keep a hater close because they dont care for you and are often a true representation of the world around you
* learn to trust somebody enough for them to be able to cut you. i used to (n prolly still do) think that letting people close enough to cut you was a fools move. i mean look at all the double crossin' backstabbin ppl around u and it's prolly clear why ppl think like this, but it came to me that the very people we call on to save us have to be allowed to cut us. look at a surgeon, he/ she has credentials papers a record of success or failure but ultimately they are given the authority to cut because they've shown themselves worthy of the knife/scalpel whateva some ppl know their surgeon's well some because of circumstances dont get the pleasure of a deep relationship but nevertheless they know that without the surgeon something catastrophic could happen. In my case, i'm the guy that refuses to see the countless degrees, multiple awards, countless pictures of saved lives, big smile, calm demeanour, steady hand, etc. etc. and opt to try and stop the hemorrhaging all by myself. i dont care as well know and proficient as Ben Carson(Gifted Hands) was he'd never operate on himself under any circumstances. any kind of rejection of a capable/willing/caring soul to cut you is really a a sign of destructive behavior. For myself i'm learning that this causes me to have destructive relationships, destructive friendships, destructive mindsets and a sometimes overwhelming case of paranoia. NOT EVERYBODY IS LOOKING TO PUT A KNIFE IN YOUR BACK! some people actually by the grace of God see you bleeding profusely and say to themselves "hey, that person could use my help"...i know crazy right but its true and more importantly a lot of them want nothing in return (even crazier)
The point is children( im mainly talkin 2 myself ) is that in 1. friends are koo but haters are often gonna lead you to a calling or at least motivate cha 2. dont be the person who refuses help when bleeding at the scene of a problem...everybody is in need of a surgeon now and then dont letcha self bleed to death!
1. I've yet to come alive
2. most ppl are walking dead
3. as different as i think i am, i am "most pply" in most aspects
4. i have a destructive nature
so with that these are the nuggets im passing on, maybe somebody can learn from me
do not listen to friends when making decisions they can only convince you, listen to haters/doubter because they often motivate you to do great things, appreciate ya friends help and their listening to you but keep a hater close because they dont care for you and are often a true representation of the world around you
* learn to trust somebody enough for them to be able to cut you. i used to (n prolly still do) think that letting people close enough to cut you was a fools move. i mean look at all the double crossin' backstabbin ppl around u and it's prolly clear why ppl think like this, but it came to me that the very people we call on to save us have to be allowed to cut us. look at a surgeon, he/ she has credentials papers a record of success or failure but ultimately they are given the authority to cut because they've shown themselves worthy of the knife/scalpel whateva some ppl know their surgeon's well some because of circumstances dont get the pleasure of a deep relationship but nevertheless they know that without the surgeon something catastrophic could happen. In my case, i'm the guy that refuses to see the countless degrees, multiple awards, countless pictures of saved lives, big smile, calm demeanour, steady hand, etc. etc. and opt to try and stop the hemorrhaging all by myself. i dont care as well know and proficient as Ben Carson(Gifted Hands) was he'd never operate on himself under any circumstances. any kind of rejection of a capable/willing/caring soul to cut you is really a a sign of destructive behavior. For myself i'm learning that this causes me to have destructive relationships, destructive friendships, destructive mindsets and a sometimes overwhelming case of paranoia. NOT EVERYBODY IS LOOKING TO PUT A KNIFE IN YOUR BACK! some people actually by the grace of God see you bleeding profusely and say to themselves "hey, that person could use my help"...i know crazy right but its true and more importantly a lot of them want nothing in return (even crazier)
The point is children( im mainly talkin 2 myself ) is that in 1. friends are koo but haters are often gonna lead you to a calling or at least motivate cha 2. dont be the person who refuses help when bleeding at the scene of a problem...everybody is in need of a surgeon now and then dont letcha self bleed to death!
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