Hip Hop Studies Conference and I'm Lost...

I'm struggling with this concept of society as a church or body of believers, strugglin wit the idea of the hip hop choir working thru this panel thing...all in all I think imma be able to beast it...

Now lets get to it...
I was working in ma yard cutting grass cuz it takes no time now considering where i came from cutting grass as a kid...(i know stay focused) n e way as i was cuttin this grass i was drawn back to a convo i had wit momz talking about responsibilities, family and obligations to friends n fam and i thought n asked my self why do i let everybody put stuff on me n i dnt even try to put anything on anybody. Imean really i said to myself i do what i do cuz i wouldn't wanna put anybody else thru what i put myself thru, i mean i empathize to the point i might go crazy, if i knw you i knw that whatever problem you're having, it's gonna eventually be my problem, not because it's my business to solve all life's problems but every time sum cumz up i say to myself what would i want somebody to do if i was in that type of situation....its soooo stressful though cuz all this burden is never released, all my life i've felt the need tbe the bridge, carry da burden, etc...n i neva found a way to release it, man dis is cazy cuz im not able to handle me own stuff and in some cases i just end up lettin everybody fall....i dont think there are any lessons to learn from me from this one other than
1. get cha self right or face a heavy life
2. you cant save everybody nor should you want to...
3.you gotta find a balance in order to truly succeed, when learning on compassion it was put best as enduring with the other or your pain afflicts me...so to a point those in close encounters with you should weigh on you but you gotta realize that some weight is your weight and some weight is theirs you cant carry everybody anytime or somebody all the time...

imma post sum real, real soon until then my Hawks need to stop playing like pigeons n get tuff...dwade is nice but his team isnt get outta the first round nice...Now You Know!