Who AM I

I'm a liar, a cheat, a manipulating thief, got a prollem wit false words flowin past my teeth. I'm a villain a victim all at the same time. I'm confusing like a riddle go wit the flow like a rhyme. I'm a chameleon @ my worst a coward at my best, the realest the times I need 2 be, a liar all the rest. I'm self centered which leads to self hate cause the more I focus on me the more mistakes I make. I'm trapped in this situation pride won't let me escape, so in the mean time I wait for my chance 2 break. I am misleading cause I speak sweet tales that I myself don't believe, the ones everybody wants to hear the ones that when uncovered make heads heavy n hearts 2 bleed. I am stubborn so my heart has developed a callus my skin can't even mirror, formed to drive people away instead of draw em nearer. I have grown tired of fallin' have been tempted to quit, been tortured by things that I'll never be able to forget. I am stronger than I give off yet weaker than perceived I frown when I'm happy smile when I grieve. I am gullible, I am believable, I am loved, I am hated, I am waiting for the day when I can say I have made it. I am  the dealer and the feign, both one in the same I distribute the same hate that was placed in my veins so when I'm called its no surprise that I answer to both names. I am a conqueror or more than, by no merit of my own, I am a child of the MOST HIGH seated at the throne. yet I am a lost soul in a big world, searching for a home. I am in need of rest but can't cause I need the time to follow my dreams and stay on my grind. I am what u want when you need. never more never less, I am what I am nothin more than my best