This New Journey

Wuddup world? All of you kind people who browse this blog by accident or pity or you're a stalker wanting to know my inner thoughts and rants to befriend me with this inside information. Whoever you are I'm glad to have your attention once again to fill you in on my most recent endeavor. I been away from the blog for some time, not that I've forgotten ya'll or didn't have anything to get off my chest, but I have been in the early stages of trying to write the next chapter of my life. with school behind me one way or the other, it's time to focus on me….if you thought I was doing that before you don't know me well enough. These last few months I've thrown myself at the mercy of those around me, more specifically strangers who don't give 2 rats tails about me. I've taken my talents to the stage and I'm currently trying my hand at comedy, standup comedy to be exact. For those of you that ask why, or what the hell the answer is I have no idea. The more holistic answer is I have no idea why I haven't tried my hand at this sooner. The time I spend working on jokes, must be what Kobe feels like in the gym in the off season getting ready to play at an MVP level I feel competitive when I write, competitive with myself, I want to be better at this than I have wanted to be better at anything in a long time. When I get on stage I want to be the best comedian I can be. The rush of the stage is something I've never felt before, the anticipation of the crowds laughter, controlling a room, making people smile or think is something I've always wanted. It's funny though that this whole process is actually helping me in other areas of life.(that I'm going to share in detail later) For starters though I've found that this whole standing in front of strangers and letting them rip into you with their eyes is scary, but what's even scarier is seeing yourself afterwards and knowing that wasn't you, (i.e. I haven't found my voice yet) and that they're so many improvements needed to get to where you want. Which means now its fight or flight, either I'm going to spend hours perfecting the craft or add this to the pile of things I "may" have been good at. For the first time in a long time I've latched on to something that I can't let go of. The stage, the fear, the work, the writing, the whole process speaks to my soul. My folks don't get it now, my friends for the most part support it but I know some think I'm a damn fool, but honestly as one of my comic mentors told me, "if you for like this don't stop until you want to and if you are for real about it you won't be able to stop it." This is soul art, something you do because something in you is crying for it. At this stage of the process in the words of one of my best friends "I still smell of placenta" I'm fresh, brand new, but honestly this is something I'd regret not giving it my all, and the late hours I'm spending writing preparing honestly don't feel like work at all…and besides everything I'm doing now is definitely for the FREE…and I still love it, and I will continue to seek the stage if for nothing else its cathartic nature. I'm going to revamp the blog a little in the future, giving ya'll the videos of my sets, adding a little more humor to the writing, but I'm still gonna try and put ya'll on the music I'm on, lessons I've learned, and tears I've cried on this journey. I'm gonna keep it raw with ya'll and hope we both get something out of this journey…Let's Get It!